Heads up poker can crawl off and suffer somewhere

Lol, i lost $20k to a fucking terrible player on friday night at 10/20. This is something i'm pretty ashamed about. I'm going to take a week off i think, catch up with my uni work, buy some stuff, eat sushi and then come back and play 5k hands of 2/4 as punishment. I should be able to jump back into the bigger games fully prepared.


This is November so far:

I'm not going to make any excuses about my play heads up, I wasn't good enough, and I need to rethink my game. I've decided i'm going to be really hard on myself about my losses from now on, I spoke to some random dude on AIM today and he told me about all his theories that FTP is rigged against him. It is my opinion that thinking that you are unlucky or that the site is rigged, or that you ran badly is all an external factor that you can't control, but it gives you an excuse not to work on your game. I don't want this to happen to me, I lost a lot of money because I didn't adjust my stupid fucking bluff happy, straightforward bullshit identikit strategy to a guy playing a very different game. I carried on playing when I was tilted, tired, dehydrated and pissed off, i'm annoyed at myself for that, I need to give myself the very best chances of winning big. I want to crush the games this year and losses like this will make me get to a stage where I can compete with the best players about. I'm not going to be lazy about my game or make excuses any more.